As Good As Dead!

I was pondering on Sunday morning during Easter service of the sacrifice of His own life that Jesus gave for us, and how through his dying many were made alive. As I entetained this thought, it spoke to me in a way to help make sense of the trials i seem to be going through this season. That I am only as good as I am dead. The Bible says 'husbands love your wives as Christ loved the church and gave himself up as an offering for it'. The picture of Christ loving the church is one of Jesus hanging on the cross, his life layed down completely, doing nothing to defend himself. That is what I hear when I think of the love of Jesus, that I am only as good as I am dead. I can only love right if I am dead, I can only serve right if I am dead, I can only lead right if I am dead. If Jean Jeune lives nothing goes right. Christ has to live in me, and in order for that to happen I must die. I don't want to die sometimes, actually many times, especially knowing when this baby comes I'll have to die somemore.

i know many of you parents are probably asking, 'what happened to my life?' You lost it long time ago, because you couldn't give life and hold on to yours at the same time it was one or the other. Now the verse "unless a seed falls to the ground and dies it remains only a seed," has new meaning for me. My days like I know them are over. It's time to pick up my cross to go nail this life on it, die, and pick a new life God is bringing me into. If any of you dads can remember going through what I'm going through now your prayers and words of encouragement are welcomed.

But as parents we really are only as good as we are dead. We must live for a future generation. But what an honor that God can allow our dying to bring new life. I'm glad I can be in this fight with you all.

Love you.